I am powerless.

And I embrace it. 

More of you Lord, and less of me. 

Knowing Jesus…

there is no greater thing. 

Bite Size Pieces

Sometimes, Life throws at you a myriad of responsibilities, demands, and standards. 

Before getting overwhelmed, I recall a simple principle that my mother used to teach me as a child. 

When your plate is filled with food, make sure you only put bite size pieces onto your fork. Only chew as much as you can put in your mouth. And chew well. Afterwards, take another piece. 

Eventually, you’ll finish the meal. 

You can never swallow more than you can handle. 

Take bite size pieces. 

her hair…. so wild and free. =) LOL 

her hair…. so wild and free. =) LOL 

Joy isn’t something that comes to you. 

It’s something you fight for. 

first day of summer, kinda

87 degrees and sunny.

soooo legit. 

felt so refreshing to drive with the windows down 

and walk around in my rainbows again. 

nothing like some more sunshine in your life. love it. it makes you want to achieve faster…. achieve more goals… and move on into the bright future. 

11:32 p.m.

resting my feet from being in heels all day for Good Friday

listening to my husband worship in the corner of the room with my guitar

my baby girl sleeping with her thumb in her mouth 

ice cold water in a tall glass 

thank you Jesus…… for this peace in my heart. 

estherson: more than it being “cute”…my mouth gapes wide open. i am in awe. a sister once told me that at a conference, a korean lady shared a story where little children were stirred and dunked in the Holy Spirit. She was taking care of these korean toddlers while the adults were having worship. She decided to worship with the kids as they sat in a circle. They sang simple worship songs, but do you know what happened? Kids starting crying, they started speaking in tongues, they were encountering the living God and the work of the Holy Spirit. But it didn’t end there. The lady realized that she couldn’t just stand there and let this blessing pass by. She took the children and went into the adult worship service. She told them to go to the adults and pray for them. They did so…and my goodness, adults were crying, kids were prophesying over them, the SPIRIT was USING THESE CHILDREN to speak and minister to the adults. Unbelievable.But even with this doubtful, reason-filled mind, my heart believes that this is so possible. Jesus told the people and his disciples that we all need childlike faith. He knew the easiest way to meet Him, to be used by Him. Childlike faith. Pure hearts.  (dude, that spiderman boy. what in the world.) i desire childlike faith. fiery passion. utter dependence on You Lord. thanks for sharing, esther. i love this photo….

estherson:

more than it being “cute”…
my mouth gapes wide open. i am in awe.


a sister once told me that at a conference, a korean lady shared a story where little children were stirred and dunked in the Holy Spirit. She was taking care of these korean toddlers while the adults were having worship. She decided to worship with the kids as they sat in a circle. They sang simple worship songs, but do you know what happened? Kids starting crying, they started speaking in tongues, they were encountering the living God and the work of the Holy Spirit. But it didn’t end there. The lady realized that she couldn’t just stand there and let this blessing pass by. She took the children and went into the adult worship service. She told them to go to the adults and pray for them. They did so…and my goodness, adults were crying, kids were prophesying over them, the SPIRIT was USING THESE CHILDREN to speak and minister to the adults.

Unbelievable.
But even with this doubtful, reason-filled mind, my heart believes that this is so possible. Jesus told the people and his disciples that we all need childlike faith. He knew the easiest way to meet Him, to be used by Him. Childlike faith. Pure hearts. 

(dude, that spiderman boy. what in the world.)

i desire childlike faith. fiery passion. utter dependence on You Lord.

thanks for sharing, esther. i love this photo….

bookstore

So, I was running an errand today and had to go to the Christian bookstore. (i love bookstores btw…. can stay in one for hours…) 

it’s been a long day, so i was sort of in a hurry while standing in line. the vibe in Christian bookstores are extremely… happy go lucky sorta feel. I legit saw some people comparing the Christian t-shirts that they were wearing. (teehee..cute). 

Anyways. I was standing there with a load of books and items I needed to bring back to church. It was heavy, and I had a load of things to remember in my mind while I was at it. As my fingers began to hurt, I realized that the lady in front of me was taking an extremely long time. The cashier was talking to her about all the options she could pick on discount. She also kept leaving the desk to show the lady in front of me other items in the store that she may like. 

I had a moment when I was legit getting frustrated. I was in a hurry. I had things to do. A life to live… you know? (yea… I was THAT dramatic…)

And all the while… this cashier was all smiling and talking slow too… with that family christian store apron on. 

But, when it became my turn, I had a moment…. when I realized…

this cashier was honoring Jesus more than I was today. she was spending her day loving those around her and being so faithful with the small tasks before her. she was in no hurry because it seemed that her priority as to be a good cashier….. not a people pleaser.  i, on the other hand, was being a busybody with no sentiment or purpose within. I was basically like a headless chicken running around….. ready to lose steam any second. 

I’m glad I had that moment. 

because it reminded me of how much I love my Jesus….and how much I want to truly love His people. 

My baby girl…

… she’s normally very happy…. lol … just didn’t like being on her tummy for this picture…. =)

i should be sleeping right now…. bc i need to wake up within the next 3-4 hours. 

but… was letting my mind run free a bit and saw this while perusing old pix. 

it’s unbelievable how a baby can rock your world. 

Moriah’s been one of the greatest blessings in my life. 

My prayer for her is that she’d be a joyful child… that in this cold and dark world she’d find her permanent joy in Jesus. I have so much to share with her as she grows older.  

i swell with pride when i can face the whole world and say, “i belong to Him. The mighty God of this universe is my heavenly Father. i’m His by adoption. i’m a joint-heir with His wonderful Son”. In that moment when you’re prone to be depressed, when you find yourself in the spirit of bondage, look up. Just pause and remember to Whom you belong.
Kathryn Kuhlman (via samuelychoi)


You must every day make higher ground. You must deny yourself to make progress with God. You must refuse everything that is not pure and holy. God wants you pure in heart. He wants you to have an intense desire after holiness.
Smith Wigglesworth (via samuelychoi)


patience.

this is something that never came to me through DNA. 

but hitting my mid 20’s….. and motherhood… and a few years of ministry under my belt…

I realize that patience is gold. 

Sometimes….  silence is louder than words. 

Your restraint…. can sometimes do more good than an immediate action. 

And as you wait… you declare that you will not be moved by impulse or judgement. You declare that you choose to be moved by God alone. 

I choose to be moved by God alone. 

I refuse to live a lukewarm life. 

Everyday, my mission is Joy. 

Joy in Christ. 

Insecurity is wrong security exposed. It often causes people to drown out the internal cry of the orphaned spirit with busyness, which also gives the much needed illusion of importance.
bill johnson